What’s left of the love that felt so right? Shadows cast upon the bed where we used to sleep at night I never thought I’d be without you here, Grief comes so naturally, no second chance, living what I most feared. Everytime I close my eyes I see your face, future plans are laid to rest, memories replace. Dreams we shared shattered like a glass upon the ground, Waking with an emptiness, I reach for you but you’re no where around. Looking in the mirror I don’t know who I see Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be, when you were here by me. Missing you gets no easier, even after a year , it’s still killing me Baby. CherryMoon
Since January 1, 2021 very strange things have been happening to me. I keep seeing all kinds of different humunoid/ spirit type things in the sky. Today I saw this, I turned the background green so everyone could see it better and on January 1 2021 I saw ” Judgement day is here” written in the shapes on the clouds and they were florescent orange and black. I really hope that I am wrong because I haven’t always had the strongest faith, but I repent and ask for forgiveness of my wrongdoings and lack of faith because my life has been pretty chaotic for some time, but even tho I questioned my beliefs I believed in karma and I never did anything really bad, persay. I have always been good to people because I always put myself in their shoes and did what I’d hope someone would do for me in return if I needed self. I was just a bit self destructive and I hurt myself more than anything.
Now, tho, I am a believer for sure. I don’t know what exactly happens in the afterlife but I do know that we are answering to someone most definitely! I just truly pray for the whole world with all my heart because so many are lost. Alot of us have been dealt raw hands and feel there can’t be anyone up there watching out for us after all that we’ve endured, but the truth is, there is sombody, and all that we have been through has been nothing but a test. A test to see how pure our hearts really are. If we can survive abuse, rape, neglect, drug addiction, burying every person we have ever loved, losing everything we have, yet still be a kind person with a gentle soul and love for humanity still in our hearts, then we pass that test. We pass the test and we will be blessed in the afterlife. I truly do believe this. So with this day and time and with everything being so chaotic and unpredictable, just pray that everything turns out for the best of our higher good as a collective and as individuals. It never hurts to pray and seek forgiveness, if we are wrong then so what? What did praying hurt? But if we are right, wouldn’t it be better safe than sorry? Love and Light to everyone and may God be with us all!
The Queen of pentacles, that is me. The down to earth motherly figure who guides and teaches her children and pupils by telling them NOT what to do, but by explaining to them what she did that DID NOT WORK. She has experienced life’s ups and downs, she has treaded waters in which angels would not dare to tread. She has taken the wrong path too many times to mention, but she has faced her demons and she has fought tooth and nail to get back on the right path. She has loved and she has lost, she has had plenty and she has had none. She has been humbled by life’s rich dark chocolate experiences and she cherishes every single hard earned creature comfort and relationship she has fought so hard to maintain. She knows life is a gift and it is fragile. She has looked death straight in the eye, but like the sphinx she rose from the ashes, from the deep dark abyss of despair and she won that battle! She transformed herself into the strong, beautiful, loving, appreciative moon goddess that she is today. She knows that she is blessed by the stars beyond comparison, beyond anything she ever felt worthy of, but she loves herself now, she might not have before but now she knows who she is. She learned that you must love and respect yourself first before anyone else can and she demands love and respect from others in return. She will not tolerate disrespect. She is not ashamed. She wears her heart on her sleeve and is an open book for anyone to read. She hides nothing from anyone and encourages you to ask her questions so that you might learn her history and see how she transformed darkness into light and rose above her challenges and tragedies and she is still kind and loving and manages to smile and laugh after all she has been through. She’s a little guarded but never hard, she is kind but she is not weak by far. She is generous yet streetsmart so don’t try to take advantage of her. She wears her battle scars like trophies to show that she has won, she survived. She will not let life break her and she will show you the way out of your darkness. She is strong, she is the Queen of Pentacles and she is I. Cherry Moon
I am Cherry Moon. This is my alter ego that I am operating in while the real me heals.
Quite a life I have lived, full of turmoil, chaos, and sudden endings. I have made my share of mistakes in this incarnation and I have paid a high price for them but the most important thing is that I have learned from my mistakes and I will spend the rest of my life making up for the damage I have caused.
You can’t go back. Once the decision is made and you open that door, the other door closes up tightly behind you. The decisions you make are now the very essence of your existence. We must remember that as we journey through life making rash, poorly thought out decisions without taking a step back to consider all the consequences.
I know all too well from personal experience and I am broken inside from it. We are given this beautiful opportunity as we begin our journey into creation. Boundless opportunities and paths arise that we can pick and choose from. Beautiful, creative ideas that we can bring into fruitation… so why do so many of us end up choosing the wrong path? Why do we sale ourselves short and choose chaos and self destructive tendencies over a more mundane simpler life? Why do we rebel against the very thing that tries to protect us? Why do some of us think that in order to be “cool” we have to break all the rules?
I’m on a soul searching journey trying to find the answers to that million dollar question. Why do we harm ourselves then expect to receive happiness? My tower fell and I mean fell big time! I have lost it all, my family, the love of my life, my sanity, and I am dealing with it on my own, the best way that I know how. I am filling my days with endless studies, and turning my pain into poetry and learning about spirituality and how everything in the universe is connected and happening in divine timing and I have found that if you get off course with your soul’s path, the universe will do anything it takes to get you back on that path. I have learned alot and I’m learning more everyday. I am using this site to write about what I’ve learned and to write down my feelings about what has happened. I’ve been healing for a year now and I have notebooks full of the many different things I have learned along the way. My hopes are that maybe it will help someone some day if they ever find themselves in my situation. I have alot of information about tarot cards, astrology and numerology because honestly, tarot cards are what got me through these dark times. Many people think that tarot cards are dark and evil themselves but they are not. I hope that you will read into them a little bit before you judge them. They really have been my saving grace. So here’s my story and what I’ve done over the past year since January 25, 2020. The day my tower fell and my entire life changed forever.
Ever feel like you are stagnant in life? Stuck at a soul sucking, dead end job that makes you feel like you’re slowly dying inside and life is just passing you by? I was. I had lost all faith, I wasn’t living, I was just existing and unhappy and I knew there had to be something else. Something for ME that would fulfill my soul and occupy my ever wondering mind and curiosity from being a life path 5 (like Janis Joplin) and a soul urge 7 ( like Morgan Freeman) and I’m so thankful I found it, It’s called…Numerology.
“What do your numbers say about you?”
Numerology: The soul code
Using the letters of your name, and each letters numerical value can help you figure out your life purpose as well as how others perceive you. You will discover your likes and dislikes, some you possibly didn’t even know you had. The best way to figure out your soul’s journey is to figure out who you are first. Numerology helps you discover this. (🎶 Getting to know you, getting to know all about you.. music fading🎶)
The first thing you do is grab a pen and paper and write down your full name at birth (first, middle, last) and your birthday. We will use the Pythagorean index to break down your numbers. (Chart below)
To find out your Life Path number just add up the numbers in your birthdate diagonally across. If you come out to a double digits number simply add those 2 numbers straight across to come out to a single digit number 1 to 9. If you get an 11, 22, 33 etc. Don’t reduce them any further because those are considered master numbers and carry a special meaning of their own. For example if your birthday is April 26, 1982 then you would write 4+2+6+1+9+8+2=32 3+2=5. So your life path would be a 5.
This is a short list of what each number means but no where near the complete description. For a more descriptive meaning check out my site where I have each numbers meaning posted there plus some other cool meanings about each number that might come in handy in your love life. (Hubba Hubba)
Life path Number 1 A person with life path number 1 will be more creative and confident. He or she will possess many talents and will have better communication skills. One is also proud, is always competitive, and stands upright. Inventors and people who are pioneers usually have a life path number 1. Life path Number 2 A spiritual or mystic person falls into this category. This number is associated with people sensitive to their life always aware and tendency to become a writer. They are lovable. They are usually intuitive and never judge people Life path Number 3 Someone with a heartfelt desire to help people and inspire others. They always express themselves in forms of singing and writing and performing too Life path Number 4 Managerial qualities are associated with number 4, those with fatherly nature whose priority is security and family are usually linked with this number. They expect loyalty and honestly and do the same. They always strive harder in life. Life path Number 5 Those who enjoy life no matter what and are optimistic. They always strive for change and are independent. People with life path number 5 usually are on the highest range of their number vibrations Life path Number 6 Literature students mostly have a number 6, they usually have a knack for arts, music, colors, etc. They are more sensitive to harmony and beauty. They are immersed in thoughts about themselves and others and are very altruistic in nature. They seek a romantic relationship and are very true to their partners. Life path Number 7 Those who meditate or connected deeply with nature. They have this innate curiosity about life and are always in learning till the farthest extent. They possess the ability to become one with nature and always have faith and trust Life path Number 8 A person with life path number 8 has the abilities of a leader or an organizer. They have power all in their nature. Life path Number 9 Counselors and teachers usually have life path number 9. They can translate a complex and intricate set of information into simpler terms and easily understood by others. They convey it like no other can.
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