What’s left of the love that felt so right? Shadows cast upon the bed where we used to sleep at night I never thought I’d be without you here, Grief comes so naturally, no second chance, living what I most feared. Everytime I close my eyes I see your face, future plans are laid to rest, memories replace. Dreams we shared shattered like a glass upon the ground, Waking with an emptiness, I reach for you but you’re no where around. Looking in the mirror I don’t know who I see Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be, when you were here by me. Missing you gets no easier, even after a year , it’s still killing me Baby. CherryMoon
Since January 1, 2021 very strange things have been happening to me. I keep seeing all kinds of different humunoid/ spirit type things in the sky. Today I saw this, I turned the background green so everyone could see it better and on January 1 2021 I saw ” Judgement day is here” written in the shapes on the clouds and they were florescent orange and black. I really hope that I am wrong because I haven’t always had the strongest faith, but I repent and ask for forgiveness of my wrongdoings and lack of faith because my life has been pretty chaotic for some time, but even tho I questioned my beliefs I believed in karma and I never did anything really bad, persay. I have always been good to people because I always put myself in their shoes and did what I’d hope someone would do for me in return if I needed self. I was just a bit self destructive and I hurt myself more than anything.
Now, tho, I am a believer for sure. I don’t know what exactly happens in the afterlife but I do know that we are answering to someone most definitely! I just truly pray for the whole world with all my heart because so many are lost. Alot of us have been dealt raw hands and feel there can’t be anyone up there watching out for us after all that we’ve endured, but the truth is, there is sombody, and all that we have been through has been nothing but a test. A test to see how pure our hearts really are. If we can survive abuse, rape, neglect, drug addiction, burying every person we have ever loved, losing everything we have, yet still be a kind person with a gentle soul and love for humanity still in our hearts, then we pass that test. We pass the test and we will be blessed in the afterlife. I truly do believe this. So with this day and time and with everything being so chaotic and unpredictable, just pray that everything turns out for the best of our higher good as a collective and as individuals. It never hurts to pray and seek forgiveness, if we are wrong then so what? What did praying hurt? But if we are right, wouldn’t it be better safe than sorry? Love and Light to everyone and may God be with us all!
I am Cherry Moon. This is my alter ego that I am operating in while the real me heals.
Quite a life I have lived, full of turmoil, chaos, and sudden endings. I have made my share of mistakes in this incarnation and I have paid a high price for them but the most important thing is that I have learned from my mistakes and I will spend the rest of my life making up for the damage I have caused.
You can’t go back. Once the decision is made and you open that door, the other door closes up tightly behind you. The decisions you make are now the very essence of your existence. We must remember that as we journey through life making rash, poorly thought out decisions without taking a step back to consider all the consequences.
I know all too well from personal experience and I am broken inside from it. We are given this beautiful opportunity as we begin our journey into creation. Boundless opportunities and paths arise that we can pick and choose from. Beautiful, creative ideas that we can bring into fruitation… so why do so many of us end up choosing the wrong path? Why do we sale ourselves short and choose chaos and self destructive tendencies over a more mundane simpler life? Why do we rebel against the very thing that tries to protect us? Why do some of us think that in order to be “cool” we have to break all the rules?
I’m on a soul searching journey trying to find the answers to that million dollar question. Why do we harm ourselves then expect to receive happiness? My tower fell and I mean fell big time! I have lost it all, my family, the love of my life, my sanity, and I am dealing with it on my own, the best way that I know how. I am filling my days with endless studies, and turning my pain into poetry and learning about spirituality and how everything in the universe is connected and happening in divine timing and I have found that if you get off course with your soul’s path, the universe will do anything it takes to get you back on that path. I have learned alot and I’m learning more everyday. I am using this site to write about what I’ve learned and to write down my feelings about what has happened. I’ve been healing for a year now and I have notebooks full of the many different things I have learned along the way. My hopes are that maybe it will help someone some day if they ever find themselves in my situation. I have alot of information about tarot cards, astrology and numerology because honestly, tarot cards are what got me through these dark times. Many people think that tarot cards are dark and evil themselves but they are not. I hope that you will read into them a little bit before you judge them. They really have been my saving grace. So here’s my story and what I’ve done over the past year since January 25, 2020. The day my tower fell and my entire life changed forever.
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