The Veil has been Lifted

After awakening from a near death experience

03/03/2021 “Look at this picture, can you see that face?” I asked excitedly. “Nope, I see a cloud” He responds annoyingly. “I told you, I don’t see the same things you see.” Errr… I thought. He never even takes the time to actually LOOK at it, he barely even shifts his eyes to catch a 2 second glimpse. If he only knew just how scared and utterly alone I felt right now, I’d like to think he’d try to help me understand what I’m experiencing so I didn’t feel so crazy, but he doesn’t. Matters of fact, he will be the very first person to point out the fact that I am, indeed, off my rocker and he finds sheer joy in taking the opportunity to tell me why I’m crazy and what I need to do in order to free myself from my heavy burden. “You gotta learn to control IT, not let IT control you.’ he clarifies for me, as if I haven’t already thought to try that. I’ve tried ignoring them, I’ve prayed and cleared the space and smudged and blasted “removing negitive energy from your home and subconscious” meditations for the last two months and they are still there, just watching, eyes everywhere. Even if I do manage to succeed in ignoring them for any ammount of time then it’s just because they are allowing me to, because when they want to show me something, when they want my attention, they make sure they get it by any means. If I’m reading somthing on my phone and they want me they will just come dancing through the lines between the sentences that I’m reading! I know when it’s about to happen because the background light on my phone gets real bright suddenly and it’s like a gate raised and here they come! It’s quite amusing actually. They show me the funniest visions sometimes because we are still learning to communicate and I can’t hear them right now, I only visionally see them so they act out the scene like actors performing in a play at school in order to make me understand the messages they are trying to give me. I feel so bad and I’m afraid they will get annoyed with me because even after watching their skit, sometimes I still can’t understand what they are trying to say. They never get frustrated tho, they just continue to act out the scene over and over with different scenarios. One of my favorites is when I’ve been up reading and I’m starting to get tired and I might accidentally nod off and catch myself, they come blasting through and act out the “nite, nite” scene where they play the “tucking your kid in bed at night” scene. That’s when I know they’re telling me to go to bed and get some sleep so I can read and actually comprehend what I’m reading tomorrow. Lol.

I’ve been seeing them for two months now and they have never done anything at all that has scared me or given me the impression that they were negitive energies. The only reason I have for assuming they could be is due to something I am ashamed to even admit… I go against everything I believe in by saying this and I feel horrible for it but the only reason I have for being afraid of them at all is due to the fact that they don’t look like what my mind imagined them to look like and where it’s so different it startles me is all. My entire life my mother taught me not to judge a book by it’s cover because what’s on the inside is what counts and through my “beings” actions they seem to be so loving and sweet but through outward appearance only I get anxiety and fear and that is so wrong of me. I have searched the internet and I have found plenty on the subject and I just want to say to always do your research before jumping to conclusions about things. I am a near death survivor and the veil seperateing the physical world from the spiritual world is very thin on me now and I live on the edge, right in the middle plane of the best of both worlds and I see, in my opinion, what I believe to be spiritual beings and entities and quite possibly extraterrestrial beings as well and I do believe that they are very much almost the exact same thing and I am telling this because the entire world is going through a cosmic shift and many people are beginning to “awaken” and become conscious of their environment and when they do they may see many unbelievable things that are going to cause them to question their sanity as well as everything they have ever been taught about life. I don’t know how so many things have managed to get so twisted and mingled throughout history but it has so if you happen to wake up one day and everything is different and nothing is like you thought it was going to be, DON’T PANIC! Thank God we have google so jump on there and start googling everything you are experiencing and I promise you will start finding answers. Luckily I’m also a tarot reader and our higher selves already know exactly everything we are going to go through and they have answers as well. So meditate, get in touch with your higher self, ask yourself what’s going on and wait, The answers you seek will soon find you. There are also many tarot readers out there and some are fairly priced and they would be eager and more than happy to help you if they are legit and sincere to their life purpose. Don’t fall for the scammers tho that charge out the ass and tell you that you have an evil hex on you that they can break or that you are about to win the lottery because they are FAKE! They can’t see that about you or I would already be rich and they only want your money. Honestly, there are alot of really good tarot readers and astrologists on youtube that would help you and I’ve also seen many on facebook as well. I, myself, read tarot and study Astrology and have been studying Numerology since I was 12 or 13 years old , back when I thought it was just a game found in the back of teen magazines. It turned out that it was not a game and is very much real and very useful and accurate and I believe it is going to become even more useful in days to come. I am by far no pro and there is always more to be learned in this niche but I would gladly help anyone that is confused and needs answers immediately. I still need answers too! Happy Awakening!

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Unhealed

February 05, 2021

What’s left of the love that felt so right?
Shadows cast upon the bed where we used to sleep at night
I never thought I’d be without you here,
Grief comes so naturally, no second chance, living what I most feared.
Everytime I close my eyes I see your face, future plans are laid to rest, memories replace.
Dreams we shared shattered like a glass upon the ground,
Waking with an emptiness, I reach for you but you’re no where around.
Looking in the mirror I don’t know who I see
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be, when you were here by me. Missing you gets no easier, even after a year , it’s still killing me Baby. CherryMoon

I lost it

January 19, 2021

Maybe I’ve lost it. Maybe it’s all in my head, maybe it’s all just a figment of my imagination, I’ll wake in the morning and you won’t be dead.

I keep living, going through the motions trying not to think, didn’t deal with my problems, and now I’ve pushed myself to the edge, to the brink.

Don’t fight the feelings, staying trapped in my own personal hell, wanna please everybody but no one stops to think that maybe, I might need some help.

Smile pretty for the picture, strength sure suits me well. Cover up the truth, I’m no longer here, you’re all just looking at
the shell.

Because I died, on the same night, that God took you home, I never came through, they couldn’t wake me up and I’m not stuck here all alone. This can’t be true this has got to be wrong, cause without you I can’t go on, I’m not the same with anyone else, how could you leave me to myself?

Yeah, I think I’ve lost it. Look at the clouds it’s the end of time… I’m gonna wake up from this nightmare and you’ll still be mine. CherryMoon for Jay

Armageddon is almost here

Since January 1, 2021 very strange things have been happening to me. I keep seeing all kinds of different humunoid/ spirit type things in the sky. Today I saw this, I turned the background green so everyone could see it better and on January 1 2021 I saw ” Judgement day is here” written in the shapes on the clouds and they were florescent orange and black. I really hope that I am wrong because I haven’t always had the strongest faith, but I repent and ask for forgiveness of my wrongdoings and lack of faith because my life has been pretty chaotic for some time, but even tho I questioned my beliefs I believed in karma and I never did anything really bad, persay. I have always been good to people because I always put myself in their shoes and did what I’d hope someone would do for me in return if I needed self. I was just a bit self destructive and I hurt myself more than anything.

Now, tho, I am a believer for sure. I don’t know what exactly happens in the afterlife but I do know that we are answering to someone most definitely! I just truly pray for the whole world with all my heart because so many are lost. Alot of us have been dealt raw hands and feel there can’t be anyone up there watching out for us after all that we’ve endured, but the truth is, there is sombody, and all that we have been through has been nothing but a test. A test to see how pure our hearts really are. If we can survive abuse, rape, neglect, drug addiction, burying every person we have ever loved, losing everything we have, yet still be a kind person with a gentle soul and love for humanity still in our hearts, then we pass that test. We pass the test and we will be blessed in the afterlife. I truly do believe this. So with this day and time and with everything being so chaotic and unpredictable, just pray that everything turns out for the best of our higher good as a collective and as individuals. It never hurts to pray and seek forgiveness, if we are wrong then so what? What did praying hurt? But if we are right, wouldn’t it be better safe than sorry? Love and Light to everyone and may God be with us all!

Kalimba guardian angel

New poem

Star Grievance Soul Healing
No Shoulder to Lean On
January 11, 2021



The Strong One Stands alone
She was available way too often, there anytime they called. The shoulder the whole world leaned on but when she broke down she found herself alone. .
A burden the whole world cast aside, her feelings were never justified. Drowning in their egotistical pride, no one cared how much an angel cried.
A broken heart and loneliness erased her pretty smile, she’d forgotten how it felt to love, it had been such a while Her tender heart turned into stone until one night Jesus finally had enough and called that angel home.
She’d forgotten where she came from and at first she was afraid, Jesus took her by the hand and they bowed their heads and prayed. She opened up her eyes again and a smile covered her face. Her cup was overflowing and she sighed a long awaited release, She was finally home with her loved ones and for the first time all she felt inside was peace. At home with my beloved, the only ones who ever truly cared for me. .


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Healing After the Tower Falls

I am Cherry Moon. This is my alter ego that I am operating in while the real me heals.

   Quite a life I have lived, full of turmoil, chaos, and sudden endings. I have made my share of mistakes in this incarnation and I have paid a high price for them but the most important thing is that I have learned from my mistakes and I will spend the rest of my life making up for the damage I have caused.

  You can’t go back. Once the decision is made and you open that door, the other door closes up tightly behind you. The decisions you make are now the very essence of your existence. We must remember that as we journey through life making rash, poorly thought out decisions without taking a step back to consider all the consequences.

  I know all too well from personal experience and I am broken inside from it. We are given this beautiful opportunity as we begin our journey into creation. Boundless opportunities and paths arise that we can pick and choose from. Beautiful, creative ideas that we can bring into fruitation… so why do so many of us end up choosing the wrong path? Why do we sale ourselves short and choose chaos and self destructive tendencies over a more mundane simpler life? Why do we rebel against the very thing that tries to protect us? Why do some of us think that in order to be “cool” we have to break all the rules?

I’m on a soul searching journey trying to find the answers to that million dollar question. Why do we harm ourselves then expect to receive happiness? My tower fell and I mean fell big time! I have lost it all, my family, the love of my life, my sanity, and I am dealing with it on my own, the best way that I know how. I am filling my days with endless studies, and turning my pain into poetry and learning about spirituality and how everything in the universe is connected and happening in divine timing and I have found that if you get off course with your soul’s path, the universe will do anything it takes to get you back on that path. I have learned alot and I’m learning more everyday. I am using this site to write about what I’ve learned and to write down my feelings about what has happened. I’ve been healing for a year now and I have notebooks full of the many different things I have learned along the way. My hopes are that maybe it will help someone some day if they ever find themselves in my situation. I have alot of information about tarot cards, astrology and numerology because honestly, tarot cards are what got me through these dark times. Many people think that tarot cards are dark and evil themselves but they are not. I hope that you will read into them a little bit before you judge them. They really have been my saving grace. So here’s my story and what I’ve done over the past year since January 25, 2020. The day my tower fell and my entire life changed forever.